Heavy

I am saying a few extra prayers tonight for those that I love that are sick, hurting, tired, have lost someone, or are just in need of a little guidance in their journey.

Just the other day I was walking through the halls at school and the piano teacher was playing  in our cafeteria and it was really pretty and it took me a minute to realize what it was. I hadn't heard this song in such a long time and it just so happened to be one of my all time favorite songs and I started to cry because It made me think of so many people in my life right who were hurting and my heart just broke because there was nothing I could do to help them. I prayed for all of them that night.I prayed for peace, no more pain, understanding, strength, healing, guidance. Life is just so strange sometimes. It goes by so extremely fast and it seems like  only when something bad happens or goes wrong the days drag on so slowly and only then do we really slow down and think about what is really going on. 

I wish all of my people lived on my block and no matter what they needed or were going through I could just walk down to their house make some coffee and just be there. I want my people near me. I feel like a part of me is missing right now because everyone is too far away and I can't get my hands on them when they need me. I really miss my people right now. My friend Rachel and I were texting back and forth tonight and she recently lost someone special to her and I said I wish we were all still in Knoxville so we could be there when someone needed us and what she texted me back made me miss everyone even more. 

"I wanna meet Mckinley and watch Gibson chase imaginary bugs. I want to smell Chris walk in a roombefore I see him and hear Whitney yell at him for using the "good" paper towels. I wanna crawl into bed with Cary at 11 in the morning and have her interrupt me while Brett plays on the computer. I want to pretend not to like your People magazine and watch you paint your toes for the third time in a day. I want the toaster to catch on fire and to eat stuffed zucchini 3 times a week. 

Why are my people so far away from me . I need my people. 

Be Not Afraid

You shall cross the barren desert, but you shall not die of thirst. You shall wander far in safety though you do not know the way. You shall speak your words in foreign lands and all will understand. You shall see the face of God and live. 

Be not afraid. I go before you always. Come follow me, and I will give you rest. t_a
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If you pass through raging waters in the sea, you shall not drown. If you walk amid the burning flames, you shall not be harmed. If you stand before the pow'r of hell and death is at your side, know that I am with you through it all. 

Be not afraid. I go before you always. Come follow me, and I will give you rest.  

Blessed are your poor, for the kingdom shall be theirs. Blest are you that weep and mourn, for one day you shall laugh. And if wicked men insult and hate you all because of me, blessed, blessed are you!

Be not afraid. I go before you always. Come follow me, and I will give you rest. 

I am going to hold onto my husband a little tighter tonight and give my Baby Love an extra blessing while she sleeps.